So I just watched Avatar with Abah. FINALLY. I actually wanted to watch it with my brother, sadly he couldn't wait for me, so yeah... I have been mentioning about wanting to watch the film so so bad at the movies over and over again to my dad. He finally gave in and took me to the cinema. HAHA. I love you, Abah. =)
Avatar was really nice. Damn nice. It's been awhile since the last time I watched a movie that has the propensity to WOW me. This movie surely did. I have never been so happy to see humans die. LOL.
I have been busy with life lately. Have been spending my days in leisure and a lot of relaxing. I have been listening to a lot of Pitbull and a lot more of John Legend on repeat too. :)
Will be updating soon with pictures taken during trips and so on.
&Ohh, Dove bird, if you're reading this. I miss you. A lot. ;)
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Dilemma
For all I know I've been going around like a mad person. Been filling my time with so much activities and parties and meeting up with friends. But nobody knows that the reason I'm doing this is because so I don't have the time of the day to sit down and think about myself; how and what I've become.
I still can't run away from it... Not entirely...
Been going through ups and downs, and a couple more downs. So far, I have learned a lot. You can never run away from the person you already are; you only grow into character as time passes you by..
InsyaAllah I will change for the better, I hope I will. :)
I still can't run away from it... Not entirely...
Been going through ups and downs, and a couple more downs. So far, I have learned a lot. You can never run away from the person you already are; you only grow into character as time passes you by..
InsyaAllah I will change for the better, I hope I will. :)
Friday, December 11, 2009
I'm home!
Hey peeps! So finally, I'm back home. I had so much fun in KL though. Sarah, Hannah, Dinah! I miss you guyssss!!! :(Anyways, been going out a lot these few days. Been trying to figure out some stuff up too. I'm quite in a mess and I had just learned about a few stuff that has been happening back home while I was away. InsyaAllah, everything is going to turn out fine. InsyaAllah. =)&Finally, I've been able to go online from the comfort of my home on my own laptop. Nothing beats the feeling of familiarity you get from using your own things eh?So I made a mini checklist for what I'm gonna do during my hols. Check this out:List of things to do during summer break.1. Have fun!2. Have more fun!!3. Have even more fun!!!LOL.Moving on...I was on fmylife.com and I read through one of the submission and I thought it was just so damn funny I just had to post it up here.I somehow pity the guy though. Anyways, this is what he wrote:-Today, I woke up and looked in the mirror and noticed that my face was covered in glitter. I asked my wife about it and she said she put it on me while I was sleeping so that I would sparkle like Edward from Twilight when I'm in the sunlight. FMLHahaha. My god. Please people, stop with the Twilight rage already. Hehe. Have fun people! I know I will. :Dxoxo.
Friday, December 4, 2009
Still on hiatus.
I'm still in KL and have been for quite some time. Gonna still be here for a few days more before heading back home. Having too much fun can be tiring. But of course, worth it. :)
So sorry for no updates oh ye obidient readers. :P
Anyways, been going to the movies almost every night. I have watched most of the movies that are playing in the cinemas around KL.
Though... I am yet to go to a foam party. LOL.
Oh yeah, I watched Paranormal Activity and I tell ya, it sucks. So baddddd. I can't believe some people got freaked out from watching that. But whatever then...
Alright people, gotta be moving. Have some more plans going on. Ciao!
So sorry for no updates oh ye obidient readers. :P
Anyways, been going to the movies almost every night. I have watched most of the movies that are playing in the cinemas around KL.
Though... I am yet to go to a foam party. LOL.
Oh yeah, I watched Paranormal Activity and I tell ya, it sucks. So baddddd. I can't believe some people got freaked out from watching that. But whatever then...
Alright people, gotta be moving. Have some more plans going on. Ciao!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Eid al-Adha
Happy Eid al-Adha, people!
I've been really frustrated probably this whole week.
Hope tomorrow's gonna change my mood for the better.
Dressing up is always fun, always always way fun with family around. =)
Have a good one, hey!
Cheers!
xoxo.
I've been really frustrated probably this whole week.
Hope tomorrow's gonna change my mood for the better.
Dressing up is always fun, always always way fun with family around. =)
Have a good one, hey!
Cheers!
xoxo.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Again & again.
Have you ever felt being used? And betrayed by someone you trust? Have you?
Probabyly because they think they could get away with it or something...
But you know what, I knew it was happening. I just couldn't understand why you didn't think it wasn't important to just spill it out & fucking tell me. Tell me.
I didn't know you were like this. And we've spent almost every time together. You could have just tell me a straight NO and be done with me.
By all means, I'm allowed to hate you for it as it all happened behind my back. AND YOU USED ME. You USED me. And I was being stupid about it.
I hate you. Hate doesn't even seem strong enough. Loath. Is loath worse than hate? Despise? Detest? Deplore? No, deplore isn't very strong. Generic hate would have to do it.
&You know what the best part is? I can't stop thinking maybe I wasn't good enough.
Let's see how much of a nice person with a kind heart I am now.
Let's see.
Probabyly because they think they could get away with it or something...
But you know what, I knew it was happening. I just couldn't understand why you didn't think it wasn't important to just spill it out & fucking tell me. Tell me.
I didn't know you were like this. And we've spent almost every time together. You could have just tell me a straight NO and be done with me.
By all means, I'm allowed to hate you for it as it all happened behind my back. AND YOU USED ME. You USED me. And I was being stupid about it.
I hate you. Hate doesn't even seem strong enough. Loath. Is loath worse than hate? Despise? Detest? Deplore? No, deplore isn't very strong. Generic hate would have to do it.
&You know what the best part is? I can't stop thinking maybe I wasn't good enough.
Let's see how much of a nice person with a kind heart I am now.
Let's see.
Monday, November 23, 2009
I wish I knew.
Time together isn't ever quite enough...
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home.
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home.
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time...
When we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time...
Please.
Please please please, stop harassing me, my siblings, or any of my family members.
There was a reason when I wanted you out of my life, and I want that to stay that way.
Please stop bothering me. You're just making it worse. :(
&Dove bird, I miss you. So so so much. :'(
I wish you were here.
There was a reason when I wanted you out of my life, and I want that to stay that way.
Please stop bothering me. You're just making it worse. :(
&Dove bird, I miss you. So so so much. :'(
I wish you were here.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
In loving memories of Mathew Jose Katikkaran...
My final paper is just a few hours away... I tried studying the whole night, but I couldn't pull through as much as I thought I would. Been crying my eyes out; my cheeks are flushed, my eyes are swollen and I'm having a headache. I couldn't even read, understand and memorize properly... My mind has been wandering and I can't seem to concentrate on anything.
Been thinking too much of Mathew...
Been thinking too much of Mathew...
His dorky smile that always goes to one end of his mouth, the smirk he had always had on his face, the loud voice of his calling out to tease everyone around, that British accent of his, his joyous and playful personality that turns everybody's frown upside down, his silly laugh, that swagger-like walk of his, and him...just him to be exact.
He's part of the family, he's a part of Jeng. Loosing him, means loosing family...means loosing a Jeng member...means loosing a part of yourself.
:'(
:'(
For ever & always you will always be in my heart. In all our hearts.
We dearly love you. We miss you already, buddy..
Where ever you are, I hope you know this. I hope you're looking down at us and smiling. I really hope so. I love you, Mat.
Knowing him, probably he's looking down at us now...and saying;
"So long suckas! I graduated from life! See you on the other side!"
;)
To Mathew:-
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
Forever & ever Mat, forever & ever. :')
We dearly love you. We miss you already, buddy..
Where ever you are, I hope you know this. I hope you're looking down at us and smiling. I really hope so. I love you, Mat.
Knowing him, probably he's looking down at us now...and saying;
"So long suckas! I graduated from life! See you on the other side!"
;)
To Mathew:-
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
- Northwest Indian Memorial on Death
Forever & ever Mat, forever & ever. :')
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Prove me wrong.
You play with my mind way too much. Can you lay down the truth for me?
Look me in the eyes and tell me it's not true what you're feeling.
Look me in the eyes and tell me it's not true what you're feeling.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Someone save me?
Finals has begun, and god damn man, I still don't have a care in the world!
My first paper was today, another one this Thusrday, one on Friday, and the next Monday. I'm free after that. Whoop-de-do! =)
Gawdd, perfet timing, Epah!
xoxo.
Someone slap me, someone slap me please.
My first paper was today, another one this Thusrday, one on Friday, and the next Monday. I'm free after that. Whoop-de-do! =)
It's 2.10 in the morning now, I should be sleeping...either that or studying with exams going on and all. But I slept the whole freaking day after my paper due to excessive information running in my head and some serious lack of sleep. I was too mentally and physically tired and drained. Now I'm all fresh and not even the slightest tired. &Everybody else is fast asleep.
Gawdd, perfet timing, Epah!
Just perfect. Hehs.
xoxo.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Tell me why.
Why do I let you get under my skin? Why do I trust you?
Words are just gonna get me into trouble...
So let me rephrase that.
:( :( :( :( :(
Words are just gonna get me into trouble...
So let me rephrase that.
:( :( :( :( :(
Some things are meant to be left out; unspoken.
Friday, November 6, 2009
So-called-Study-Week.
Let me just say this here.
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED!!!
Final exams begin on the 10th (for me)... & I have not started anything!
Okay, maybe a lillll bittt. BUT STILL. I have to get serious, and I'm not even worried. I have got to find my zealousness. Soon, soon. I hope so.
I need another reality check.
&Oh, such good news... My laptop is spoiled. Went out to reformat my notebook earlier on today, and I can only get it back on Monday. &Exam is on Tuesday, and my notes are in there. And my files. My god damn files.
Grrreeaattt. Just GREAT.
Good Luck for exams, people.
Good luck to you, good luck to me, good luck everybody.
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED,
I'M SCREWED!!!
Final exams begin on the 10th (for me)... & I have not started anything!
Okay, maybe a lillll bittt. BUT STILL. I have to get serious, and I'm not even worried. I have got to find my zealousness. Soon, soon. I hope so.
I need another reality check.
&Oh, such good news... My laptop is spoiled. Went out to reformat my notebook earlier on today, and I can only get it back on Monday. &Exam is on Tuesday, and my notes are in there. And my files. My god damn files.
Grrreeaattt. Just GREAT.
Good Luck for exams, people.
Good luck to you, good luck to me, good luck everybody.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Stop hurting me.
I want nothing to do with you no more.
This ends...Right here, right now.
This ends...Right here, right now.
I wish I can say this...out loud.
:(
:(
There's always a first time for everything.
I'm having finals next week and the week after that. Then, I'm done with this semester! Been trying to study these past few days. I tidied up my room and updated my notes just to set in the mood. Hopefully I'll be studying soon.
Oh, my roommate has been pretty happy this few days. HAHA. Yes, I just had to mention it here, Shafiya. I'm happy for you and good luck with that! ;)
I've been listening to Michael Jackson's - You Rock My World and Owl City's - The Saltwater Room a lot on repeat too. In fact, I'm listening to it now. Right this moment.
Anyhow...
How was your Halloween people? I had fun! The crowd wasn't so fun; but the dressing up part was fun! I'll just post a picture from the party.
Here, you have a witch, the angel, lady liberty, Frankenstein, the devil, a bunny and a bat. =) That's us; as this one group that was too shy to walk in as other people wasn't so dressing up. But it's Halloween! You're supposed to do so! Isn't that the whole point?? LOL.
I hope next Halloween would be more happening. I already have an idea on what to wear. ;D
Anyways...
I went out with the girls last weekend; Anthea, Marianne & I. We went under garments hunting! HAHAHA. Now I got Anthea broke and crazy over sleep wears & Marianne all hyped out on laces. :P
But it was, nonetheless, fun I tell ya!
Marianne & I. It was such a coincidence that we liked the same bag and it matches our outfit on that day. Cool huh? :D
A clearer picture of the bags that Marianne & I fell in love with. God, I really want this. God please give me the blue bag. :P
I didn't take a picture of Anthea, but I do have a picture of her sexy feet & her brand new sandals! Haha.
Hey girls, let's go out again! JOM JOM JOM. =)
&Ohh, remember that little plan of ours? Let's make it happen, and nobody will ever know. *wink wink grins*
Alright, I'm out of words already. I feel like cuddling in bed while watching a movie. Come join me? Night y'alls!
Oh, my roommate has been pretty happy this few days. HAHA. Yes, I just had to mention it here, Shafiya. I'm happy for you and good luck with that! ;)
I've been listening to Michael Jackson's - You Rock My World and Owl City's - The Saltwater Room a lot on repeat too. In fact, I'm listening to it now. Right this moment.
Anyhow...
How was your Halloween people? I had fun! The crowd wasn't so fun; but the dressing up part was fun! I'll just post a picture from the party.
Here, you have a witch, the angel, lady liberty, Frankenstein, the devil, a bunny and a bat. =) That's us; as this one group that was too shy to walk in as other people wasn't so dressing up. But it's Halloween! You're supposed to do so! Isn't that the whole point?? LOL.
I hope next Halloween would be more happening. I already have an idea on what to wear. ;D
Anyways...
I went out with the girls last weekend; Anthea, Marianne & I. We went under garments hunting! HAHAHA. Now I got Anthea broke and crazy over sleep wears & Marianne all hyped out on laces. :P
But it was, nonetheless, fun I tell ya!
Marianne & I. It was such a coincidence that we liked the same bag and it matches our outfit on that day. Cool huh? :D
A clearer picture of the bags that Marianne & I fell in love with. God, I really want this. God please give me the blue bag. :P
I didn't take a picture of Anthea, but I do have a picture of her sexy feet & her brand new sandals! Haha.
Hey girls, let's go out again! JOM JOM JOM. =)
&Ohh, remember that little plan of ours? Let's make it happen, and nobody will ever know. *wink wink grins*
Alright, I'm out of words already. I feel like cuddling in bed while watching a movie. Come join me? Night y'alls!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Sexiness in Everyone
Check this out. I really like this ad. It's really cool. Who says us Muslims women can't? LOL. One of my favorite ads actually. =)
You did that.
You just smashed my heart. Yes, you did. You hurt me, and I'm not even denying it.
It's high time for me to figure this one all over again.
&Start my new mistake.
Another one.. and another one..
Until I get it right.
Thank you.
Thank you to you so so much. :')
Hats off & a standing ovation for you.
It's high time for me to figure this one all over again.
&Start my new mistake.
Another one.. and another one..
Until I get it right.
Thank you.
Thank you to you so so much. :')
Hats off & a standing ovation for you.
I'll worry if I were you btw...or not.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Reality Check.
Something just has to hit you in the face in order for you to know you're doing the wrong thing. I mean, sometimes you do know, but you just can't accept the fact that it is wrong.
You keep on going and going and going until it just hits you in the head.
And you crash...HARD.
LOL.
Sounds a lil' bit too dramatic...
BUT,
I did get myself in quite a predicament here.
Been slacking off of the reality world. Now, currently I'm cleaning up my act and trying to redeem myself by starting with my assignments. Finally eh? Haha.
I got myself into this, now I just have to deal with it.
I kinda like the excitement it gives actually. =)
Happy doing assignments & revisions, y'all!
Good Luck.
You keep on going and going and going until it just hits you in the head.
And you crash...HARD.
LOL.
Sounds a lil' bit too dramatic...
BUT,
I did get myself in quite a predicament here.
Been slacking off of the reality world. Now, currently I'm cleaning up my act and trying to redeem myself by starting with my assignments. Finally eh? Haha.
I got myself into this, now I just have to deal with it.
I kinda like the excitement it gives actually. =)
Happy doing assignments & revisions, y'all!
Good Luck.
Friday, October 16, 2009
You-tubing.
My first ever concert I went to was one of Michael Jackson's. I was such a big fan of him since God knows when!
Linking to that, I went on you tube to search for interesting videos of live performances from Michael Jackson. I stumbled into a live performance from him & Britney Spears. Two of my favourite singers; it's legendary! This was years back though, and I actually remembered watching this from the comfort of my home with the family. We're all big fans of Michael Jackson. I'm just a much more bigger fan of Britney Spears than they are. =)
I know I would have enjoyed this show more if I was actually there. LOL.
Britney Spears is so hot here.. If I'm not in the right state of mind, I would have turned bi for her. HAHA.
But, anyways. Enjoy! :D
Linking to that, I went on you tube to search for interesting videos of live performances from Michael Jackson. I stumbled into a live performance from him & Britney Spears. Two of my favourite singers; it's legendary! This was years back though, and I actually remembered watching this from the comfort of my home with the family. We're all big fans of Michael Jackson. I'm just a much more bigger fan of Britney Spears than they are. =)
I know I would have enjoyed this show more if I was actually there. LOL.
Britney Spears is so hot here.. If I'm not in the right state of mind, I would have turned bi for her. HAHA.
But, anyways. Enjoy! :D
Ohh, I've been coughing like mad lately. :O
Can you feel the heat?
Watched a movie entitled "Heat". Robert DeNiro and Al Pacino were in it. Also, Val Kilmer and a young teenage Natalie Portman. It's an old movie, but it was nice. It's about these really professional robbers. I just like the way bad boys think. LOL
That particular line just hit me, and I was reminded of my own decisions that I may have or have not made.
Makes me think, it is true. Don't get in whatever problem you don't want to deal with in the future. But sometimes, people are too caught up in the moment, they just don't seem to care nor notice it.
Choose wisely, people!
Cheers!
"A guy told me one time,One of my favourite lines from the movie. =)
Don't let yourself get attach to anything you are not willing to work out on 30 seconds flat if you feel the heat around the corner."
That particular line just hit me, and I was reminded of my own decisions that I may have or have not made.
Makes me think, it is true. Don't get in whatever problem you don't want to deal with in the future. But sometimes, people are too caught up in the moment, they just don't seem to care nor notice it.
Choose wisely, people!
Cheers!
Monday, October 12, 2009
What I'm feeling.
There's just too much angst within me. I would want to let it out so badly. Only if I know how...
smash smash smash KAA-BOOMM!
Won't that be easier?
SIGH.
smash smash smash KAA-BOOMM!
Won't that be easier?
SIGH.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Am I wrong to do so?
All of a sudden, I just feel like screaming. I'm so cranky right now, & I don't even know why. Maybe because of bottled up feelings? I don't know... I don't know what hit me. Everything is just so disdain right now. Everything just doesn't seem right. One thing, or the other just bother the hell out of me. This is such a hassle.
I need to.
I want to.
Can I..?
I want to.
Can I..?
Can I just
SCREAM???
I'd die to find out what's up with me.
Exactly. Right. Now.
SCREAM???
I'd die to find out what's up with me.
Exactly. Right. Now.
Monday, October 5, 2009
What a Day!
I just got back from my home town yesterday.
I went to class as usual...and I was kinda excited to see someone after class.
I did see him, we had a fight and I didn't get too excited anymore after that.
I don't know man.. I really don't know what's gonna happen.
It turned out better after that though.
Maybe we didn't really figured out what to do, but I'm glad we talked.
&I really want things to work out.
Just remember what I told you okay.
I hope it'll get better.
Interesting day I had though.
I went to class as usual...and I was kinda excited to see someone after class.
I did see him, we had a fight and I didn't get too excited anymore after that.
I don't know man.. I really don't know what's gonna happen.
It turned out better after that though.
Maybe we didn't really figured out what to do, but I'm glad we talked.
&I really want things to work out.
Just remember what I told you okay.
I hope it'll get better.
Interesting day I had though.
...This too shall pass...
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Come down, Run down.
Happy Eid everybody! Yeah I know, I know... I'm a few weeks late, but we are still in the month of Eid,...so why not eh? =)
Was planning to take a family picture and posting it up here, but we were too busy & nobody actually remembered to take one. LOL. Raya was fun though, nonetheless.
Raya was hella fun I tell ya!
It was hectic all through the week. I went visiting with different groups of people each day. Hahah. There was the family group, the siblings, the cousins & the friends.
&Somehow in between, the friends found the opportunity to slip in some Martel. And not to mention, a lot of dates, camels & poos. HAHA.
I miss you guys. I miss everybody back home.
Moving on,...
I didn't go to prom nor the after party. I had something else going on back home at the very same time. No biggie. There's always next year eh? =)
I heard it was fun; but I had my own fun going on, so that's okayyyy. ;)
Exam's coming in less than a month. I gotta start picking up my pace & I better start reading. Fast.
Goodnight people. Happy Monday!
Was planning to take a family picture and posting it up here, but we were too busy & nobody actually remembered to take one. LOL. Raya was fun though, nonetheless.
Raya was hella fun I tell ya!
It was hectic all through the week. I went visiting with different groups of people each day. Hahah. There was the family group, the siblings, the cousins & the friends.
&Somehow in between, the friends found the opportunity to slip in some Martel. And not to mention, a lot of dates, camels & poos. HAHA.
I miss you guys. I miss everybody back home.
Moving on,...
I didn't go to prom nor the after party. I had something else going on back home at the very same time. No biggie. There's always next year eh? =)
I heard it was fun; but I had my own fun going on, so that's okayyyy. ;)
Exam's coming in less than a month. I gotta start picking up my pace & I better start reading. Fast.
Goodnight people. Happy Monday!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
You have stolen My heart.
I have not been updating for a long time eh? Been busy with Raya...& assignments.
Just for the sake of updating...
Check this song out. Currently addicted to it.
&it has been on my play list non-stop. =)
AND, since I am unable to embed the video here...
Do check out the link.
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional.
Just for the sake of updating...
Check this song out. Currently addicted to it.
&it has been on my play list non-stop. =)
Do check out the link.
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional.
You are the best one,
of the best ones. :)
of the best ones. :)
Friday, September 18, 2009
Salam Eid Mubarak.
Salam Eid Mubarak, people! I'm kinda excited for Eid this year.
Just a quickie today.
Just to let you know I'm still surviving...
even after mid-terms && assignments.
But thank God, I'm done with those.
...At least for now...
Alright. I gotta go. I gotta double check my things.
My cousin's picking me up with his friend & we're driving back home. =)
See you, guys.
See you, Curtin.
Happy Holidays & Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfirti.
Ciao, ciao. ;)
Just a quickie today.
Just to let you know I'm still surviving...
even after mid-terms && assignments.
But thank God, I'm done with those.
...At least for now...
Alright. I gotta go. I gotta double check my things.
My cousin's picking me up with his friend & we're driving back home. =)
See you, guys.
See you, Curtin.
Happy Holidays & Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfirti.
Ciao, ciao. ;)
Friday, September 11, 2009
Sometimes you just have to follow where LIFE takes you. ;)
I've been trying to write about something for the past few days; on every single day since my last post. But, to no avail...
Can't seem to be thinking of anything lately. Probably my mood has not kicked in yet.
&My ambiguous mind is killing me.
But anyways, give me an idea on what to talk about, people! Why do I feel so weird these few days? Heh.
Let's just be more optimistic here lah okay... Gotta stop with all these negativity...
I've been writing a lot actually. Just that when I'm halfway there I'll delete everything. Every single thing. I don't know why though. It's like as if I don't want people to read what I'm thinking. It's not like it's gonna be a huge impact on anybody or whatever, I just feel weird about writing...Which isnot normal.
I probably just need some excitement. But, I don't know... Probably it's not happening anytime soon. But you know what? I think I need a time-out; or a day out being lazy with people I love & just wasting time together. I would really love that. =)
Eid is coming soon and I'm quite excited. Not till the verge of jumping around acting cuckoo while wishing everybody a happy Eid though. Not until that extent. No, not yet. ;P
I haven't been talking to a friend in a long time. So was nice talking to you, Nabil. :D
I'm looking forward for the I-Fest tomorrow being held in the new multi-purpose hall. Hope that'd be great! :))
&Looking forward to wearing my new babies! Gonna be rockin' it soon. ;)
Was supposed to be going out tonight, but someone got tipsy. &Everything was canceled. :(
Well. That's it. I'm out for now. Ciaos.
Can't seem to be thinking of anything lately. Probably my mood has not kicked in yet.
&My ambiguous mind is killing me.
But anyways, give me an idea on what to talk about, people! Why do I feel so weird these few days? Heh.
Let's just be more optimistic here lah okay... Gotta stop with all these negativity...
I've been writing a lot actually. Just that when I'm halfway there I'll delete everything. Every single thing. I don't know why though. It's like as if I don't want people to read what I'm thinking. It's not like it's gonna be a huge impact on anybody or whatever, I just feel weird about writing...Which is
I probably just need some excitement. But, I don't know... Probably it's not happening anytime soon. But you know what? I think I need a time-out; or a day out being lazy with people I love & just wasting time together. I would really love that. =)
Eid is coming soon and I'm quite excited. Not till the verge of jumping around acting cuckoo while wishing everybody a happy Eid though. Not until that extent. No, not yet. ;P
I haven't been talking to a friend in a long time. So was nice talking to you, Nabil. :D
I'm looking forward for the I-Fest tomorrow being held in the new multi-purpose hall. Hope that'd be great! :))
&Looking forward to wearing my new babies! Gonna be rockin' it soon. ;)
Was supposed to be going out tonight, but someone got tipsy. &Everything was canceled. :(
Well. That's it. I'm out for now. Ciaos.
p/s: A random thought. I think stubble can be pretty hot on a guy. :)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Get to Know me better,
Shi Yi tagged me, and since Valerie posted it in her blog, I might as well do the same. :P
Though, I'm not so sure if it does really say the right thing about me. Do you? ;)
Anyways... I got this from Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Just to fill in the time. :)
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Knowing you, Knowing me.
You know what? My brother invented a theory. For me.
Before that, this post does not have to do with anything at all. It's just a random thought that has been in my mind for some time. Read if you want, leave if you may. =)
Anyways, I remembered my brother said,
The 1st ever guy I dated wasn't entirely Mr. Perfect but he was halfway there... He has good reputation, very good with people, listens to his parents, active in sports and quite a religious person. But we did not have a happy ending. Fortunately. Yes, fortunately. If it wasn't for him; I won't learn.
And since then onwards, I started being a lil bit reckless...
But you know what I think? I think it may be true. And/Or it may be because of a thing that happend to me when I was a child. Only then did I noticed about it, 'then' was the same time when I had the bad experience with that guy I 1st dated.
But anyways, moving on on a not so lighter note,
I had a talk with a friend, and I have come out with the conclusion that... I'm a bad person.
I'll tell you...
I changed - a hell lot. I am no longer the same person you think I was a few years back, or even months back. My perspectives on a lot of things has also changed. I have my own theories now. The way I think; the way I express myself; the way I treat people. It's all not the same. Not anymore. &I doubt it would be.
One of the things that is still within me is, my attitude probably. Sometimes because of this, people tend not to open up and be honest with me. &I don't like that. I don't like that at all.
You know what, I have also come down with the conclusion that I may not be a girlfriend material. I may be the worst ever girlfriend-to-be. These days, I play around a lot. A WHOLE LOT. Yes, friends have voice out their concerns. I just brushed them away. To me, playing around doesn't hurt; unless someone gets it first.
&The thing is, my family and friends did try to warn me - at least I think they did. It just didn't go in my head. Eventually, I'll think about it later on. But later on ain't a good thing. Not in this case, no.
My goodness Epah; when are you gonna change for the better? How long are you gonna live your life like this?
The thing is, I'm completely aware of what I'm doing; I just couldn't care less. &I like it. You might ask what the hell am I rambling about? Well honey, it's a thing that has been bothering me for quite a longgg time. It's personal. And writing a quarter of it here in my blog is actually a very bad idea. I know this; I'm conscious about it but still I'm doing it.
It's just a reminder for my dear self.
Oh God.
Before that, this post does not have to do with anything at all. It's just a random thought that has been in my mind for some time. Read if you want, leave if you may. =)
Anyways, I remembered my brother said,
"I think the first guy you ever dated just fucked things up for you and changed your perceptions on good guys. Like the actual good guys that girls should give a second look at and actually give the chance to be with. You know, not bad asses or I should just put it as assholes."Well, he didn't say that exactly. I just changed it in a way... Alright, I rephrased his whole sentence. LOL. But it's more or less the same.
The 1st ever guy I dated wasn't entirely Mr. Perfect but he was halfway there... He has good reputation, very good with people, listens to his parents, active in sports and quite a religious person. But we did not have a happy ending. Fortunately. Yes, fortunately. If it wasn't for him; I won't learn.
And since then onwards, I started being a lil bit reckless...
But you know what I think? I think it may be true. And/Or it may be because of a thing that happend to me when I was a child. Only then did I noticed about it, 'then' was the same time when I had the bad experience with that guy I 1st dated.
But anyways, moving on on a not so lighter note,
I had a talk with a friend, and I have come out with the conclusion that... I'm a bad person.
What? Why? When? How?
I'll tell you...
I changed - a hell lot. I am no longer the same person you think I was a few years back, or even months back. My perspectives on a lot of things has also changed. I have my own theories now. The way I think; the way I express myself; the way I treat people. It's all not the same. Not anymore. &I doubt it would be.
One of the things that is still within me is, my attitude probably. Sometimes because of this, people tend not to open up and be honest with me. &I don't like that. I don't like that at all.
You know what, I have also come down with the conclusion that I may not be a girlfriend material. I may be the worst ever girlfriend-to-be. These days, I play around a lot. A WHOLE LOT. Yes, friends have voice out their concerns. I just brushed them away. To me, playing around doesn't hurt; unless someone gets it first.
&The thing is, my family and friends did try to warn me - at least I think they did. It just didn't go in my head. Eventually, I'll think about it later on. But later on ain't a good thing. Not in this case, no.
My goodness Epah; when are you gonna change for the better? How long are you gonna live your life like this?
The thing is, I'm completely aware of what I'm doing; I just couldn't care less. &I like it. You might ask what the hell am I rambling about? Well honey, it's a thing that has been bothering me for quite a longgg time. It's personal. And writing a quarter of it here in my blog is actually a very bad idea. I know this; I'm conscious about it but still I'm doing it.
It's just a reminder for my dear self.
"Epah, remember who you are. &See at what you've become."
Oh God.
What do you have to say now?
p/s: I wanna go to a foam party!!! So so bad.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Some things never change.
I've been staring at the same web page from yesterday. It's something I Google-d for my Marketing 100 assignment. I have to identify my primary target market it says here; referring to my outline. &The more I read through; the more I get confused. :S
I gotta figure this out soon. I HAVE TO.
I tried studying too, but well - EPIC FAILURE. As least I tried? Hehh.
Let me see, a little note-to-self here.
What have I gotta do within these two weeks? Hmm...
1. Marketing 100 assignment.
2. Study for Business Law 100 Topic 2&3, also the 4 step processes.
3. Economics 100 midterm.
4. Economics 100 article analysis.
5. Business Info System 100 individual assignment.
6. Business Info System 100 group assignment.
Surprise, surprise... None of it is done; and still I'm typing away instead of carrying with my responsibility.
Epah epah. Apa la you...
=(
I gotta figure this out soon. I HAVE TO.
I tried studying too, but well - EPIC FAILURE. As least I tried? Hehh.
Let me see, a little note-to-self here.
What have I gotta do within these two weeks? Hmm...
1. Marketing 100 assignment.
2. Study for Business Law 100 Topic 2&3, also the 4 step processes.
3. Economics 100 midterm.
4. Economics 100 article analysis.
5. Business Info System 100 individual assignment.
6. Business Info System 100 group assignment.
Surprise, surprise... None of it is done; and still I'm typing away instead of carrying with my responsibility.
Epah epah. Apa la you...
=(
Monday, August 24, 2009
Watch out fellas!
So...Let me tell you what has been happening lately.. Or at least for today... :P
I'm back back back in Miri!!! Just got back yesterday...
Shafiya is still in Shah Alam, and I'm making full use of the night lamp since she's not here. Haha.
Went out with the whole lot of Jeng to get some ingredients for the fish curry that Jaz will be cooking for sahur tonight. Sadly, I'm not fasting; but doesn't mean I can't have some! LOL.
Poom Poom got in to the quarter final!!! Finally, they made it. WHOO HOO! lol.
Was supposed to go for Amanda's birthday party going on now; but none of the Jeng felt like going, so that explains why I'm not going. Amanda kept asking me to go, and even Ashvind called! =(
I feel realllyyy awful. I'm so sorry Kitty Kat, I'll make it up to you okay Manda manda? =)
&also, Kevin crashed the car; therefore there's no car for us to go out. The car is in the workshop now and thank God, Kevin and Tako are safe. :)
Currently chatting up with Chris as I'm typing this down. LOL. I miss you old buddy! I miss your lameness! I think I miss you too much that I'm actually sounding really lame like you! Hahaha.
A guy is putting my name as his p.m. and I don't know why.. Still there, still there, still there.
Lastly, I have not been productive. I have yet to start revising for the mid terms && ALSO assignments! God, please help me. Hope I'll make it through, insyaAllah. =)
SO that's it people! See ya, when I see ya!
xoxo. ;)
p/s. My comment box is now officially open for Anyone - & yes, this includes Anonymous Users. =)
Friday, August 21, 2009
Stupid Mistake.
If you didn't know this yet, I'm currently back home in Bintulu. =)
Every single time when I'm home, I'll get into this very very very extra lazy phase. Like doing anything would be a waste of time; while doing nothing on the other hand is very productive! An efficient way to start my puasa don't you think? LOL.
Anyways...
As I unpacked my stuffs earlier on just now, I just found out that I forgot to pack my panties along. I FREAKING FORGOT TO TAKE MY PANTIES WITH ME!!! Freakin' hellllllllll!!! Hahaha...
I find this funny... Like hell,
How can I forget man?? And to sum it all up, I accidentally kicked my left middle finger last night, and since I have extra long nails; it hurt like hell! & yes, it bled. =(
Damn man.
Nevermind... Since I'm back home, something nice is bound to happen. Soon. :P
Well, at least I have a reason to buy new panties to add to my collection. LOL.
That's it for tonight. Night y'alls!
Selamat bersahur. =)
Every single time when I'm home, I'll get into this very very very extra lazy phase. Like doing anything would be a waste of time; while doing nothing on the other hand is very productive! An efficient way to start my puasa don't you think? LOL.
Anyways...
As I unpacked my stuffs earlier on just now, I just found out that I forgot to pack my panties along. I FREAKING FORGOT TO TAKE MY PANTIES WITH ME!!! Freakin' hellllllllll!!! Hahaha...
I find this funny... Like hell,
How can I forget man?? And to sum it all up, I accidentally kicked my left middle finger last night, and since I have extra long nails; it hurt like hell! & yes, it bled. =(
Damn man.
Nevermind... Since I'm back home, something nice is bound to happen. Soon. :P
Well, at least I have a reason to buy new panties to add to my collection. LOL.
That's it for tonight. Night y'alls!
Selamat bersahur. =)
Ramadhan Al Mubarak!
So, we're gonna start fasting tomorrow... And I'm actually excited! LOL.
I'm back home right now, gonna be having my 1st Ramadan with the family. My mom's excited that we're all here together. ;)
So.. Happy Ramadan y'alls!!!
Hope you'll have a good one.
xoxo.
=)
I'm back home right now, gonna be having my 1st Ramadan with the family. My mom's excited that we're all here together. ;)
So.. Happy Ramadan y'alls!!!
Hope you'll have a good one.
xoxo.
=)
Friday, August 14, 2009
So, people! How are ya?
I have not been updating for quite an amount of time now and I think my dearest blog must have missed my rantings and ramblings. Sorry dear Bloggie, here's one for you! Hee. :P
Anyways, I've been really random this week; and people have been random with me. S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y. Hahah. :D
Let me just state what's been going on here; just so you don't feel left out. HAHA:
1. I've flirted with 5, okay, maybe 6 different guys in one whole day.
2. I went on the last Curtin bus for one ride and didn't even get off: Yes, the driver was weirded out.
3. I'm thinking of doing a labret-below the lips.
4. I laughed like hell in a 3 hours class.
5. I laughed like hell in the same class; when I was doing a test.
6. I feel like clubbing, and doing something wild. Not a good idea; but am capable of doing so.
7. My economics 100 lecturer thought I was not Malaysian.
8. One of my new friend thought I was a Christian.
9. I've made over 30 new friends in less than 2 weeks.
10. Now I know I'm capable of talking and getting a guy to ask me out with just a smile.
11. Another new friend thought I was from Detroit.
12. I've not been thinking of him lately. I am now, but still-an improvement!
13. Found out an old scandal liked my blog. Maybe still do?
14. I drove to DPS at 9p.m. just to get Mango juice.
15. I think guys with button up shirts, jeans and sneakers are sexy.
16. I think I may be crushing on 4 different guys at the same time.
17. Abah bought me a new phone.
18. I'm thinking of changing to Maxis; well Abah is forcing me too actually.
19. I've been fasting for the couple of days.
20. I bought new matching boxers and singlets.
21. I'm psyched out and very eager for Poom Poom to play in the futsal tournament next week!
WOO-HOO! Tut tu ru rut tut! POOM POOM! ;)))
Anyways, I've been really random this week; and people have been random with me. S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y. Hahah. :D
Let me just state what's been going on here; just so you don't feel left out. HAHA:
1. I've flirted with 5, okay, maybe 6 different guys in one whole day.
2. I went on the last Curtin bus for one ride and didn't even get off: Yes, the driver was weirded out.
3. I'm thinking of doing a labret-below the lips.
4. I laughed like hell in a 3 hours class.
5. I laughed like hell in the same class; when I was doing a test.
6. I feel like clubbing, and doing something wild. Not a good idea; but am capable of doing so.
7. My economics 100 lecturer thought I was not Malaysian.
8. One of my new friend thought I was a Christian.
9. I've made over 30 new friends in less than 2 weeks.
10. Now I know I'm capable of talking and getting a guy to ask me out with just a smile.
11. Another new friend thought I was from Detroit.
12. I've not been thinking of him lately. I am now, but still-an improvement!
13. Found out an old scandal liked my blog. Maybe still do?
14. I drove to DPS at 9p.m. just to get Mango juice.
15. I think guys with button up shirts, jeans and sneakers are sexy.
16. I think I may be crushing on 4 different guys at the same time.
17. Abah bought me a new phone.
18. I'm thinking of changing to Maxis; well Abah is forcing me too actually.
19. I've been fasting for the couple of days.
20. I bought new matching boxers and singlets.
21. I'm psyched out and very eager for Poom Poom to play in the futsal tournament next week!
WOO-HOO! Tut tu ru rut tut! POOM POOM! ;)))
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tag, you're it!
1.If you married the person you last texted, what would your last name be?
**You know what, it'll be too much controversy if I actually put the name here. So, pass. HAHAHA.
2.What did you do today?
**My day's not finished yet. But had a 3 hours class, and just got back to my room. :)
3.Do you know a secret about your last featured friend that would embarrass them
**Which featured friend??
4.What is one fact about the last person who called you?
**LOVES me! :D
5.Last time you were on the phone?
**A few hours back.
6.What's for dinner?
**Something really niceee! LOL.
7.Ever fought with someone older or younger?
**Of course.
8.How many e-mail addresses do you have?
**three to be exact.
9.Last time you washed your hair?
**Last night.
10.Do you like Oreo's?
**Uh-huh Uh-huh. It's nice.
11.Can you ice skate?
**Oh yessss. I loike.
12.Do you have a brother?
** I have 2.
13.Do you know how to change a diaper?
**Yup.
14.Do you keep a planner?
**I do, but I don't use it all the time though...
15.What kind of mood are you in?
**Just...neutral.
16.Do you take out the trash?
**Sometimes.
17.What's the best part about being single?
**I can flirt around. HAHAHA.
18.Do you watch "The Hills"?
**Used to.
19.Who are you thinking of right now?
**B.
20.Wearing any bracelet?
**Not now, no.
21.What are you doing now?
**Listening to Rain.
22.Who was the last person that helped you stop crying?
**Myself? LOL.
23.Who do you trust with your life?
**No one specifically.
24.If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
**I prefer mine, just the way it is. =)
25.Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
**If the benefit is high, possibly.
26.Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?
**Bath tub,yes. Shower,no. Eh wait, I think I had.
28.What are your parents middle names?`
**Adam & Wee.
29.Righty or Lefty?
**Righty.
30.Favorite juice?
**Carrot.
31.Have you had the chicken pox?
**Yes.
32.Have you had a sore throat?
**Had one last week.
33.Who knows you the best?
**Hard to say...
34.Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
**Both.
35.Last person to see you cry?
**Harleen & Shafiya?36. People u tag!
** Harleen! Mr Roy! Ashraf! Abby! Anthea! A'ishah! Seetah! Val! Rome! Fatin! Fynna! Malik! Nadea! =)
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