Saturday, February 28, 2009

Dinner @ Ami E.G's.

Last night we had a dinner at Ami E.G's. It was like a doa selamat thing for Aunty Khadija for her surgery that she had earlier last month. Had fun, and took some pictures.

Thanks for dinner Aunty Khadija!

Let's just let the pictures speak for themselves eh?

Abg & I

The 3 brothers.

Zabirah, my sister & I.

My sis, Annisa-cousin & Aunty Khadija.

The boys.

Again. Them.

My other brother.

Jedi-the Godfather.

The E.G's. :)

Oh man.

You have no idea how much annoyed I am with you guys. Feels like stabbing knives on you guys over and over again... Hahah. Okay, that kinda sounds a bit.....maniacal…
But yes, currently in that state.

I feel like screaming in your face to tell you the state I'm in now because I don't like it, but I can't do much about it. I'm restraining myself to do anything about it-at all, and I'll try to not care.

Though I think I’ve made it clear before, that I do not like this at all. I have no idea which of the dislike part that you guys do not understand.

But you know... I've been turning a blind eye for months now, and I don't think I can handle much of it. It makes me go cuckoo. And makes me wanting to hurt you guys more... Ughh. *go away fugly thoughts*

I can handle this. I know I can...

See the positive views from all of this, Epah! Ohhh, fcuk it. There's nothing positive in it at all. Zero. Zippo. Nada.

Still, I won't let it get to me. I won't. Sigh... I hate you for making me this way.
Go screw yourselves!

At this point, I think I'm going permanently mental...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009


I was out with Abah the other day; we went groceries shopping.
There was this one little boy, he was crying his eyes out due to what, I have no idea.

It was so obvious that his parents were mad at him for crying in public.
It was a pity sight, but I couldn't do anything besides from looking at him from afar.

After paying for the things, we - Abah and I got in the car.
The little boy and his parents went to their motorbike and ride just right beside us.

The little boy was squashed between his parents, and still crying..
My heart leap out to him while I look at him from the car..
Searching for his eyes, I smiled..

He looked me in the eye, all confused.
Then, his frown turned into a smile, and he was amused to see someone smiling back at him!

He started laughing and clapping his hands together and waving at me.

How amazing is that? Just because I gave him a smile.
That made me smile the whole entire day.

A smile could brighten up someone's day with or without you knowing it.

This one's for you, little boy.
For all the rest of your days that you begin with a smile.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

To you.

I don't get why you keep on pushing me. Out of so many people, I have hoped that you would be the one to understand me.

Don't force me into doing something that I don't want to. There's a reason to why I said "no".

Sincerity comes from the heart, not from what I have to do to satisfy you.
I'm sorry, but I'll stick to what I want, and I'll surely stick to what I stand for.

For some reasons, I really do not want to get all tied up in your dramas. Not now.
Don't get me wrong, I do still care.
It's just not the right time.
Not the perfect moment.
And I do not want to take the risk that you are willing to take.

As I said, I've been in the same situation before and believe me, I know how it'll come out..
I do not want to make the same mistake again.

Please, not now.

& please don't get mad at me. Please.


Monday, February 23, 2009


Tears streamed down my face for you..

You don't even know..

You're too pure.

Ferren Nair. Hahah!

Amanda Christi Jerome Francis,
I miss you!!!

Will see you in a couple of weeks time.

Our block feels incomplete without me kan kan kan?


Oh, Mandy! Syg syg mama Manda! Lols. :P

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I Just Want To Fly High.

1. Name one person who make you laugh last night?
: Syeba.
2. What were you doing at 0800?
: Swimming.. ;)
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
: Had my dinner with Abang..
4. What happened to you in 2006?
: I fell for someone. Hahah.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
: "Oyyyy!"
6. How many beverages did you have today?
: Two, I think..
7. What color is your hairbrush?
: Sexxayyy black!
8. What was the last thing you paid for?
: Hmmm... I think it was the late supper with my friends.
9. Where were you last night?
: Went out with the fellas and had fun chasing people's cars. Hahah.
10. What color is your front door?
: Somewhat maroon or so.
11. Where do you keep your change?
: In my wallet, either that or my piggy bank. :D
12. What's the weather like today?
: Windy and coldddd.
13. What's the best ice-cream flavor?
: Oh, Cho-co-late, of course!
14. What excites you?
: The fact of going back to Curtin.
15. Do you want to cut your hair?
: Nope. Not yet though, I like the curls at the ends. :)
16. Are you over the age of 25?
: Not yet.
17. Do you talk a lot?
: Not really. Hahaha.
18. Do you watch the O.C?
: I rarely do.
19. Do you know anyone named steven?
: Even stevens?
20. Do you make up your own words?
: I do.
21. Are you a jealous person?
: I can be, try me.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'.
: Amalina!
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'.
: Kavinash Raj Singam.
24. Who's the first person on your received call list?
: Syeeba-ba.
25. What does the last text message you received say?
: "Ambik daun pisang." Hahahah.
26. Do you chew on you straw?
: I do.
27. Do you have curly hair?
: Oh yes! And lovesss them! :P
28. Where's the next place you're going to?
: Everly Hotel.
29. Who's the rudest person in your life?
: Hmm. Me? Lol.
30. What was the last thing you ate?
: Dinner.
31. Will you get married in the future?
: InshaAllah, I will.. ;)
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks?
: Underworld III?
33. Is there anyone you like right now?
: That's a toughie.
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
: Few minutes ago, right after dinner.
35. Are you currently depressed?
: Maybee.
36. Did you cry today?
: No I did not.
37. Why did you answer and post this?
: Amalina tagged me! Lols.
38. What are you listening to?
: Picture of you - Boyzone. :))
39. What's on your mind?
: Some blurry pictures of people.
40. Tag 5 person:

Alrightt. That's it poeple!


Saturday, February 21, 2009

Great Weekend.

How was your weekend? I've been very weirdly active. Been going out for a swim every morning and jogs in the evening.. Yes, believe it people, because it is so true! I'm even impressed of myself! Hahah..

Though I think my skin is getting more tanned from being exposed to the great outdoors. Oh, wells! At least I'm happy doing what I'm doing! ;)

Been hanging out with the fellas too. Every single night without missed! Ahh, felt just like the old days, when we were not too busy with university life and could hang out anytime we wanted too.

Ohh, after a so very very long time, I went to the movies! Watched Underworld III with friends and siblings. It has been some time since I've actually had this much fun.. Here's some of the photos we took one of the many nights..

*the sibs*

*the fellas*

Right people, gonna take my time off and relax for a bit..

Ciao. I'm out!


Tagged by Zowwo.

Here's for you! ;)


The Rules are simple. Use google,etc to search for the answers to the questions below. then you must choose a picture in the first page of result and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

The Age of My next Birthday

A Place I’d Like To Travel To

A Favorite Place

A Favorite Food

A nickname I had

A favorite Color

The City I live in

The City I Was Born in

College Major

Name of my love

Bad Habit



I tag :








Thursday, February 19, 2009


I found something quite interesting... Have a read, people! ;)

You Think English is Easy??? Can you read these right the first time?

1) The bandage was wound around the wound.

2) The farm was used to produce produce.

3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.

4) We must polish the Polish furniture.

5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.

6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.

7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present.

8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.

9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.

10) I did not object to the object.

11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.

12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.

13) They were too close to the door to close it.

14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.

15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.

16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.

17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.

18) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.

19) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.

20) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

Let's face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language ! in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all. That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

PS. - Why doesn't "Buick" rhyme with "quick"..

Ahah. Interesting eh? :D

Monday, February 16, 2009

My Almost Second Mistake.

The thing is... I think I might still have some feelings towards you. Emphasizing on the word 'some' there. Which also explains why I am in deep shit. One thing's for sure, I know it won't work because I can't stand you!

The fact that you annoy the hell out of me at times, just makes me hate you more.
But seeing you with someone else, I don't know... Just felt awkward you know.
Can't blame me, its the feelings.

But I still think it was wrong of you to screw that innocent girl, just because I screwed you before? Oh please la mister! You know why I did that at the first place.

Still, I know you want it so bad, but I don't. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for letting you down.
You're seriously shit a good guy. Very charming and indeed intelligent.
I guess I prefer us to be friends.

Did you not notice the sparks when we were talking and hanging out these past few days? I know you did, that's why you said all those sweet things and tried to reason with me...
Very sweet of you.

The way I see it, there's more chemistry in us as friends. Rather than being together. But say if it would turn out to be the opposite, and it would work, I don't wanna rush things too.

I've made a mistake before, and I'm not ready to make another huge one. I'm still learning, slowly.

O M G. I'm in such a mess. Save me. ;(

I've made my bed, now I have to sleep in it.

I confuse myself.

I am very tempted to do something that I would seriously regret because I've been in the same situation before.
Most probably I know what the outcome would be. But you knowww, I'm so damn bored!
I know I shouldn't play with people's feelings, but it's not like I am really playing if you're good looking enough for other people to fall for you eh? Hahaha.
Okay, okay. I'm not making any sense. I should stop rambling too.

Goshh, Epah! Get your head straight!

You don't wanna do these cruel things to people, it's just not right!
And people deserve to be treated better!
And people like me should be extinct. Terminated more like it. Huh.

Right, whatever... I'm just gonna shut everything at the back of my head.

Hmm.. Or maybe...

Tagged by Putri. ;)

1) Do you think you're hot?
LOL. I have my days. Hahaha.

2) Upload your favourite picture of you.
I don't have one. But what the heck. I'll randomly pick.

3) Why do you like that picture?
Actually I did not like the picture at first. LOL. I just think it's funny.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
A very very long time ago...

5) The last song you listened to?
Phonography by Britney Spears.

6) What are you doing now besides this?
Chatting with this one guy, who happens to be one of my ex-tuition mates. Hahaha. I have no idea at first. ;P

People I tag :
1) Harleen
2) Wann
3) Farah
4) Ashraf
5) Deklin

Who is number 1?
Aleeennnn. My sayang. My best friend! LOLs

Say something about number 5.
Veryyy adorablee. ;D

How about number 4?
Hahah. Budak MyV banyak cakap. :P

Who is number 2?
Wann. A friend. ;)

Ok, that's all.

Till then eh?

Sunday, February 15, 2009


Fish off.
I am seriously not in a good mood right now.
Go fish yourself.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


Can I go away and start anew?

Can it be a place where no one knows?

Can I move and never return?

Can it be a permanent home?

Can I just sleep and never wake up?

Can I?

Something to fill in the time...

Good-Bad News.

Shite. I'm so screwed. I've been having mood swings today. Before you ask anything, YES I definitely know why. It is just too sad to be written here. So screw it.

I was shocked, then I was happy, I got hyper then. Then I got real sad. Minutes after that I laughed my ass off!

It goes like in a cycle. Keeps on repeating itself.

God damn, I have some mental problems. Seriously Ma should have taken me to Bandung with her. I need my real holiday too, Ma.

I'm so frustrated that no matter what, it won't disappear from my mind.
As if there's a large force, greater than gravity that's forcing it to be stuck there, and was never meant to be moved, at all.

It hurts badly...

No matter how hard friends tried to cheer me up, I can't seem to be happy for long. Just for that moment though, then when I'm left with my own thoughts, there I am, back in reality.

, go away.
Or maybe I should.


Ohh, finally!



Ohh, finally!

I've reached Level 9.

Thank you Mr. Zuma!

Hahahha. I'm the happiest person right now!


Abang, in your face!


Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Exes & Guilts.

I saw my ex just now.
I've always have this guilty feeling everytime I see him.
But not this time though.
He was with another girl.
And I'm darn happy for him..

I'm glad you moved on. ;))

Turning Point.

Life's been an ass. It has been dull, that I need something interesting to happen.
You know, like get chased by the police again.
Get grounded and yet try to sneak out.
Follow people's cars to scare the hell out of them out of boredom.
Flip my dad's Prado one more time.
Go out with friends at 4 in the morning just because.
You know, doing all of that just to get the thrill.

I've been seriously busy. Been going out almost every night; if not around 9, then it's around 12 o'clock. And the thing is, I have the car all to myself yet nobody to share the excitement with!

I've been staying up late again, up until 4-5 in the morning. So much of trying to sleep early.

Friends have been busy lately, either that or just sick.
Life's sucky, I knowww.

So yeah, somebody please, amazed me. ;)

Saturday, February 7, 2009


I think I'm losing my voice from all the screaming.

Seriously, Mr. Zuma Zuma, why won't you let me pass Level 8-7?


I lost my mojo...

Friday, February 6, 2009

Mamakk. ;)

How cool is she? LOLs! :P

Mum left for Kuching yesterday night, and she'll be off to Bandung soon. I'm not sure what time today, but I think it's a late flight. So I'm all stuck with her business here. Been busy yesterday, had to check up her canteen, then at night, had to check her restaurant. Sial la, why do I have to do this. I'm just an 18 year old. Sheeshh.

But it is fun bossing people around! Hahah.

I'm gonna be real busy and obviously tired the whole week.

Gahh. I thought I'm already finish with these stuffs, but think again Epah.

That's okay though, she is my mum and I love her.

Maa, rindu mamak! Beli barang banyak2 k kamek keii. Hahaha. :D

"A picture of us. Ma took this ;) "

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

You Promised Me

I got tagged by Putri! It's the second time I'm doing this same thing. Hahah, total boredom makes you do stufffs.

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
4. Tag some friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

Chain Hang Low - Jibbs

Universe - Savage Garden

Hotel California - The Eagles

Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden

Whisper - Evanescence

Sexy Love - Neyo. (HAHAHA.)

Like You'll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys. (WTH? Haha.)

Energy - Natalie feat Baby Bash

American Boy - Estelle feat Kanye West

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Pretty Boy - M2M


Fantasy - Timbaland

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol


Right Now - Pussycat Dolls

Lie About Us - Avant feat Nicole. LOLs.


A Woman Like Me - Beyonce. (Wowwee)

Gimme More - Britney Spears. (HAHA. Paloii)


Everything I Do I Do It For You - Bryan Adams (CEHH la ok.)

A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

Change The World - Eric Clapton

Stan - Eminem


Away From Me - Evanescence


You Promised Me - In Grid

People I tagged.
1. Farah Hanis
2. Harleen
3. Ashraf
4. Anybody. :)

Where's the Door?

Our door has always been shut close.
It was never open,
even at the first place.
It never was.

We tried so hard to open it,
that it cracked.

All this while,
that's where the light comes from.

Through the cracks,
not the shut door.

But I won't stop being myself.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009


I've just finished watching episode 17 and the ending was...


Down-right inappropriate.
But then again, that's what makes the show interesting.

Good Morning people!

I was sleeping nicely before my lappy started playing techno songs at around 6.30. Haha. Now I'm up, and I think I slept for like one and a half hours only? O.o


Might as well watch episode 17 of the Gossip Girl..

I'm ecstatic!



Till then,
you know you love me,

Zuma Zuma.

It's Four-One-Oh a.m. now and I've been playing Zuma for hours.

Go google if you don't know what it is...

I think my brother paid the creators of the Zuma company people a large amount of money so I won't be able to pass Level 8.

Abang, stop being jealous.

Imissyou btw. ;D

Shut up. Susah carik gamba kitak.
I searced for a picture of you and I together, but all sik senonoh.
Thus, a picture of you and Jedi and his playboy sweater. Gangster yowww! Hahaha.

When you get back, we'll take pretty pretty pictures okayy. Hahaha.

What is there left to be done?

Things just happens in a blink of an eye. Before you knew it, everything's changing. Most probably, you would not give a hell and keep on living in that world of yours, in your own head, with only the people you care about. But eventually reality sets in. And you have to accept the fact that everything is changing, and not to just how you want it to be.

It's hard finding yourself lost in a group of people that you have known all your life. It's hard to face the reality at times.

Sometimes you wish it would just stop.
But no, it will keep on continue going it's own way.
And the worst part, there's nothing you could do except for going with the flow.
Molding yourself to what there is to come.
Keeping yourself ready for the worst of the worst.

Remember people, how bad a situation or something is, never regret it. Never regret on what you have done. Because at one point, you wanted it, and it made you the way you are right now.

Right this moment.

Keep on smiling, people!

Monday, February 2, 2009


Oh My Goddd. I CANNOT SLEEP! :(((

Please, please eyes, pleasee sleeppp.

Is there anybody else still awake at the moment?
Please save me??Pretty please???
With whipped cream and cherries on top. Pleaseeeee?

Fire Up!

Days sloping around at home is seriously taking a toll on me. Hence, I've made up my mind and decided to help mum at her place at the restaurant!
Finallyyy, something to fill my time with. ;D

I'm just seconds away from getting ready and go to the restaurant.
Out y'alls!

Anyways, I just found out that Mr. Roy reads my blog. So hello there Mr. Roy! Hahaha.