Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Feels good to be home.

I've been home for sometime now.

It's gonna be a long 2 weeks, a not-so-tuition-free-week, but still I think it's always good to get away and take my mind off things. I do have a lot of assignments though. Really need to start doing soon...


It just feels good to see the people around you, just to remember where you stand. (if I'm even making sense) :)

Been doing a little bit of reading, so I just I'll just be on my way...

Good day, people!

Cheers! xx.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Those Moments.

Remember when we used to hang about and just keep on talking? Remember how you used to tease me about everything you can just to get the story out of me? Remember all the secrets that I told you, and you told me? Remember when you used to drive me anywhere I want to go because you just feel like so? Remember all the places we've been? Remember the times you got mad at me for not listening? Remember when you used to care so much? Remember you used to tell me stuff...and you used to tell people stuff too, just to get me out of trouble? Remember when we just have each others back?

I remember... I remember all of it.

I miss you, Mathew... We all here do.. And being in Curtin just doesn't help at all.

We try not to talk so much about you now, because it just gets to us. Every time someone says your name, everybody just keeps quiet. I know they don't say it, but I just know everybody misses you dearly. I do.

I just have these moments when I think of you; I just don't like the feeling.

Man, I miss you. :(

Friday, March 19, 2010

It's the weekend!

I just suddenly have the urge of going out and getting crazy!

Ladies! Who's with me??


Saturday, March 13, 2010

Peace is just a state of mind.

Right his moment, one year back I lost my grandpa...
Yesterday, I lost someone dear to me..
Two more days from now, it's exactly 4 months since I lost Mathew..
&I've been having one of those days where I feel like I'm loosing myself.

I don't know where my mind is at now. I just really need someone.

Allah, help me. ;')

Friday, March 12, 2010

Nothing lasts, don't it?

An epiphany I had...

I think I'm over-thinking love.

LOVE - Should be from your heart, not your head. Ahh, what am I saying. Love just doesn't work well on me. Very non-wearable on Epah. LOL.

I had always think that it just doesn't make sense to force someone to be with you, even if you care a lot. Even when that specific person would be the last person you wanna lose. If the person chooses not to be with you, probably he/she has got good reasons behind that. &There's always no point of having a forced relationship, why don't just let it go then eh?

I think we moved a lil' bit too fast. Even for me.

You would just be crazy if you liked me anyways...

'Cause you know, I had always imagine myself as a spinster when I grow older. Maybe I don't belong with anybody, I'm just as good as I am.

Thanks to those who I have talked to about this and talked to me, I love you guys. :')

“When someone leaves you, the worst thing you can do is ask yourself why,” she began. “Because as soon as you know the answer to that question, you’ll just replace that question with another one—and no one should have that much power over you. At some point, you have to let go, and realize that you can’t make someone want to be with you. Either they do, or they don’t. Now if they do, then great; but if they don’t, then move on and believe that God has something better for you.”

I just need time to understand all of this and pick up all the little pieces I left on the ground. And all the things I had ignored. You... I am so sorry. I never wanted to be a burden to you. If you're happier like this, I'll let it be. I pray for you on every single chance I have. InsyaAllah, this will get better.

And here I am, right back where I started, and poor me, was too innocent and naive to think that it would last forever.