I couldn’t sleep. I was thinking about what you said..
And you know what?
It’s not that we can’t truly love someone; it’s just that we’ve been hurt the first time so bad. If not during the first time, then maybe it happened again the second time. And we got cheated on too maybe… And these people, that did these to us, they’re actually good people. Another reason for us to be more careful. And maybe because we’ve done things that we’re afraid that they’ll do to us too. So there’s always that voice at the back of our heads that keeps messing with us. Even after finding someone new over and over again, there’s just always something else that hurts us, and that hurt that we have that was almost cured, just got wounded up again. Just keeps on stacking; because you know, and I know people like us - we say we’re okay with it because we’d like to think that we are, but honestly, who are we kidding? We’re not really. It still affects us, subconsciously sometimes. And because of that, we’re afraid to; it’s not that we can’t - don’t doubt yourself. I was almost there- to actually love someone with all my heart, but things happened. And the process continues. You see, we don’t really open up to people easily; at least I don’t think we do. So we probably take longer time to accept things and be comfortable with it. Some people learn it the hard way…some people like us. You get what I’m saying? ;)
Well, at least that’s what I think… What do you think? :)