Have you ever felt being used? And betrayed by someone you trust? Have you?
Probabyly because they think they could get away with it or something...
But you know what, I knew it was happening. I just couldn't understand why you didn't think it wasn't important to just spill it out & fucking tell me. Tell me.
I didn't know you were like this. And we've spent almost every time together. You could have just tell me a straight NO and be done with me.
By all means, I'm allowed to hate you for it as it all happened behind my back. AND YOU USED ME. You USED me. And I was being stupid about it.
I hate you. Hate doesn't even seem strong enough. Loath. Is loath worse than hate? Despise? Detest? Deplore? No, deplore isn't very strong. Generic hate would have to do it.
&You know what the best part is? I can't stop thinking maybe I wasn't good enough.
Let's see how much of a nice person with a kind heart I am now.