In loving memories of Mathew Jose Katikkaran...

My final paper is just a few hours away... I tried studying the whole night, but I couldn't pull through as much as I thought I would. Been crying my eyes out; my cheeks are flushed, my eyes are swollen and I'm having a headache. I couldn't even read, understand and memorize properly... My mind has been wandering and I can't seem to concentrate on anything.

Been thinking too much of Mathew...

His dorky smile that always goes to one end of his mouth, the smirk he had always had on his face, the loud voice of his calling out to tease everyone around, that British accent of his, his joyous and playful personality that turns everybody's frown upside down, his silly laugh, that swagger-like walk of his, and him...just him to be exact.

He's part of the family, he's a part of Jeng. Loosing him, means loosing family...means loosing a Jeng member...means loosing a part of yourself.
:'(

For ever & always you will always be in my heart. In all our hearts.

We dearly love you. We miss you already, buddy..
Where ever you are, I hope you know this. I hope you're looking down at us and smiling. I really hope so. I love you, Mat.

Knowing him, probably he's looking down at us now...and saying;
"So long suckas! I graduated from life! See you on the other side!"
;)


To Mathew:-
Do not stand at my grave and weep.

I am not there. I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain.

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning’s hush,

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight.

I am the soft star that shines at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.

I am not there. I do not sleep.

- Northwest Indian Memorial on Death

Forever & ever Mat, forever & ever. :')