Knowing you, Knowing me.

You know what? My brother invented a theory. For me.

Before that, this post does not have to do with anything at all. It's just a random thought that has been in my mind for some time. Read if you want, leave if you may. =)

Anyways, I remembered my brother said,

"I think the first guy you ever dated just fucked things up for you and changed your perceptions on good guys. Like the actual good guys that girls should give a second look at and actually give the chance to be with. You know, not bad asses or I should just put it as assholes."

Well, he didn't say that exactly. I just changed it in a way... Alright, I rephrased his whole sentence. LOL. But it's more or less the same.

The 1st ever guy I dated wasn't entirely Mr. Perfect but he was halfway there... He has good reputation, very good with people, listens to his parents, active in sports and quite a religious person. But we did not have a happy ending. Fortunately. Yes, fortunately. If it wasn't for him; I won't learn.
And since then onwards, I started being a lil bit reckless...

But you know what I think? I think it may be true. And/Or it may be because of a thing that happend to me when I was a child. Only then did I noticed about it, 'then' was the same time when I had the bad experience with that guy I 1st dated.

But anyways, moving on on a not so lighter note,
I had a talk with a friend, and I have come out with the conclusion that... I'm a bad person.

What? Why? When? How?

I'll tell you...

I changed - a hell lot. I am no longer the same person you think I was a few years back, or even months back. My perspectives on a lot of things has also changed. I have my own theories now. The way I think; the way I express myself; the way I treat people. It's all not the same. Not anymore. &I doubt it would be.

One of the things that is still within me is, my attitude probably. Sometimes because of this, people tend not to open up and be honest with me. &I don't like that. I don't like that at all.

You know what, I have also come down with the conclusion that I may not be a girlfriend material. I may be the worst ever girlfriend-to-be. These days, I play around a lot. A WHOLE LOT. Yes, friends have voice out their concerns. I just brushed them away. To me, playing around doesn't hurt; unless someone gets it first.

&The thing is, my family and friends did try to warn me - at least I think they did. It just didn't go in my head. Eventually, I'll think about it later on. But later on ain't a good thing. Not in this case, no.

My goodness Epah; when are you gonna change for the better? How long are you gonna live your life like this?

The thing is, I'm completely aware of what I'm doing; I just couldn't care less. &I like it. You might ask what the hell am I rambling about? Well honey, it's a thing that has been bothering me for quite a longgg time. It's personal. And writing a quarter of it here in my blog is actually a very bad idea. I know this; I'm conscious about it but still I'm doing it.

It's just a reminder for my dear self.

"Epah, remember who you are. &See at what you've become."

Oh God.

What do you have to say now?

p/s: I wanna go to a foam party!!! So so bad.

Some things never change.

I've been staring at the same web page from yesterday. It's something I Google-d for my Marketing 100 assignment. I have to identify my primary target market it says here; referring to my outline. &The more I read through; the more I get confused. :S

I gotta figure this out soon. I HAVE TO.

I tried studying too, but well - EPIC FAILURE. As least I tried? Hehh.

Let me see, a little note-to-self here.
What have I gotta do within these two weeks? Hmm...
1. Marketing 100 assignment.
2. Study for Business Law 100 Topic 2&3, also the 4 step processes.
3. Economics 100 midterm.
4. Economics 100 article analysis.
5. Business Info System 100 individual assignment.
6. Business Info System 100 group assignment.

Surprise, surprise... None of it is done; and still I'm typing away instead of carrying with my responsibility.
Epah epah. Apa la you...

=(

Watch out fellas!

So...Let me tell you what has been happening lately.. Or at least for today... :P

I'm back back back in Miri!!! Just got back yesterday...

Shafiya is still in Shah Alam, and I'm making full use of the night lamp since she's not here. Haha.

Went out with the whole lot of Jeng to get some ingredients for the fish curry that Jaz will be cooking for sahur tonight. Sadly, I'm not fasting; but doesn't mean I can't have some! LOL.

Poom Poom got in to the quarter final!!! Finally, they made it. WHOO HOO! lol.

Was supposed to go for Amanda's birthday party going on now; but none of the Jeng felt like going, so that explains why I'm not going. Amanda kept asking me to go, and even Ashvind called! =(
I feel realllyyy awful. I'm so sorry Kitty Kat, I'll make it up to you okay Manda manda? =)

&also, Kevin crashed the car; therefore there's no car for us to go out. The car is in the workshop now and thank God, Kevin and Tako are safe. :)

Currently chatting up with Chris as I'm typing this down. LOL. I miss you old buddy! I miss your lameness! I think I miss you too much that I'm actually sounding really lame like you! Hahaha.

A guy is putting my name as his p.m. and I don't know why.. Still there, still there, still there.

Lastly, I have not been productive. I have yet to start revising for the mid terms && ALSO assignments! God, please help me. Hope I'll make it through, insyaAllah. =)

SO that's it people! See ya, when I see ya!


xoxo. ;)

p/s. My comment box is now officially open for Anyone - & yes, this includes Anonymous Users. =)

Stupid Mistake.

If you didn't know this yet, I'm currently back home in Bintulu. =)

Every single time when I'm home, I'll get into this very very very extra lazy phase. Like doing anything would be a waste of time; while doing nothing on the other hand is very productive! An efficient way to start my puasa don't you think? LOL.

Anyways...

As I unpacked my stuffs earlier on just now, I just found out that I forgot to pack my panties along. I FREAKING FORGOT TO TAKE MY PANTIES WITH ME!!! Freakin' hellllllllll!!! Hahaha...

I find this funny... Like hell,
How can I forget man?? And to sum it all up, I accidentally kicked my left middle finger last night, and since I have extra long nails; it hurt like hell! & yes, it bled. =(

Damn man.

Nevermind... Since I'm back home, something nice is bound to happen. Soon. :P

Well, at least I have a reason to buy new panties to add to my collection. LOL.

That's it for tonight. Night y'alls!

Selamat bersahur. =)

Ramadhan Al Mubarak!

So, we're gonna start fasting tomorrow... And I'm actually excited! LOL.

I'm back home right now, gonna be having my 1st Ramadan with the family. My mom's excited that we're all here together. ;)

So.. Happy Ramadan y'alls!!!
Hope you'll have a good one.

xoxo.
=)

So, people! How are ya?

I have not been updating for quite an amount of time now and I think my dearest blog must have missed my rantings and ramblings. Sorry dear Bloggie, here's one for you! Hee. :P

Anyways, I've been really random this week; and people have been random with me. S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y. Hahah. :D
Let me just state what's been going on here; just so you don't feel left out. HAHA:

1. I've flirted with 5, okay, maybe 6 different guys in one whole day.
2. I went on the last Curtin bus for one ride and didn't even get off: Yes, the driver was weirded out.
3. I'm thinking of doing a labret-below the lips.
4. I laughed like hell in a 3 hours class.
5. I laughed like hell in the same class; when I was doing a test.
6. I feel like clubbing, and doing something wild. Not a good idea; but am capable of doing so.
7. My economics 100 lecturer thought I was not Malaysian.
8. One of my new friend thought I was a Christian.
9. I've made over 30 new friends in less than 2 weeks.
10. Now I know I'm capable of talking and getting a guy to ask me out with just a smile.
11. Another new friend thought I was from Detroit.
12. I've not been thinking of him lately. I am now, but still-an improvement!
13. Found out an old scandal liked my blog. Maybe still do?
14. I drove to DPS at 9p.m. just to get Mango juice.
15. I think guys with button up shirts, jeans and sneakers are sexy.
16. I think I may be crushing on 4 different guys at the same time.
17. Abah bought me a new phone.
18. I'm thinking of changing to Maxis; well Abah is forcing me too actually.
19. I've been fasting for the couple of days.
20. I bought new matching boxers and singlets.
21. I'm psyched out and very eager for Poom Poom to play in the futsal tournament next week!

WOO-HOO! Tut tu ru rut tut! POOM POOM! ;)))

I'm jinxed.

I keep ending up with assholes...

I should just give up on love.

Tag, you're it!

1.If you married the person you last texted, what would your last name be?

**You know what, it'll be too much controversy if I actually put the name here. So, pass. HAHAHA.

2.What did you do today?

**My day's not finished yet. But had a 3 hours class, and just got back to my room. :)

3.Do you know a secret about your last featured friend that would embarrass them

**Which featured friend??

4.What is one fact about the last person who called you?

**LOVES me! :D

5.Last time you were on the phone?

**A few hours back.

6.What's for dinner?

**Something really niceee! LOL.

7.Ever fought with someone older or younger?

**Of course.

8.How many e-mail addresses do you have?

**three to be exact.

9.Last time you washed your hair?

**Last night.

10.Do you like Oreo's?

**Uh-huh Uh-huh. It's nice.

11.Can you ice skate?

**Oh yessss. I loike.

12.Do you have a brother?

** I have 2.

13.Do you know how to change a diaper?

**Yup.

14.Do you keep a planner?

**I do, but I don't use it all the time though...

15.What kind of mood are you in?

**Just...neutral.

16.Do you take out the trash?

**Sometimes.

17.What's the best part about being single?

**I can flirt around. HAHAHA.

18.Do you watch "The Hills"?

**Used to.

19.Who are you thinking of right now?

**B.

20.Wearing any bracelet?

**Not now, no.

21.What are you doing now?

**Listening to Rain.

22.Who was the last person that helped you stop crying?

**Myself? LOL.

23.Who do you trust with your life?

**No one specifically.

24.If you could change your name to anything what would it be?

**I prefer mine, just the way it is. =)

25.Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?

**If the benefit is high, possibly.

26.Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?

**Bath tub,yes. Shower,no. Eh wait, I think I had.

28.What are your parents middle names?`

**Adam & Wee.

29.Righty or Lefty?

**Righty.

30.Favorite juice?

**Carrot.

31.Have you had the chicken pox?

**Yes.

32.Have you had a sore throat?

**Had one last week.

33.Who knows you the best?

**Hard to say...

34.Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?

**Both.

35.Last person to see you cry?

**Harleen & Shafiya?

36. People u tag!
** Harleen! Mr Roy! Ashraf! Abby! Anthea! A'ishah! Seetah! Val! Rome! Fatin! Fynna! Malik! Nadea! =)

Just for your info . . .

I AM still alive. I'm not dead. Well, not yet.

I am already back in Miri,been here a week already and classes are already starting. Kinda pumped up for the new semester, and looking forward to a new beginning, from ALL aspects. ALL OF 'EM.

& Ohh, I thought Miri was gonna suck so bad without many of my friends around, but nah... I can still survive. Though, there are quite many changes around here, I'm still okay with everything though.

Really looking forward for a new..."everything"...

=)

Cheers!
xoxo.

p.s. My phone broke. I'm phoneless. (Daddyyyyyy...!)